My attempts to “de-sequence” myself have had a side effect.
I have learned to forget.
It does wonders for my dancing but has introduced difficulties in attending workshops that involve sequences. I can look at the sequence, go ‘that’s nice’ and then be incapable of reproducing it because I have no interest in reproductions.
Oops!
Ooooh! Congratulations.
It sounds like you’ve hit a leader’s equivalent of the followers’ class problem – where classes you were getting a lot out of suddenly start seeming completely useless, or even making you go backwards, and you have to think up a new way to learn.
I don’t think I’ve reached that yet. I still get something out of the classes once I beat the sequence into my head. It’s just that when I enter the state of embrace any desire to repeat someone else’s steps washes away.
It’s called the law of diminishing returns. And I congratulate you for your efforts at staying in the moment as an exploratory pioneer rather than remaining a reproductionist